It’s amazing how as you get older you redefine and try and work out your own spirituality. Over the years I have struggled with so much guilt and unforgiveness that I have struggled to find a place where I sit comfortably with my God.
I stopped going to church for many years, purely because I felt judged, which in reality, I have realised in hindsight was coming from me not from anyone else but it kept me from going to church for nearly 10 years.
I recently found a beautiful, family orientated church that I feel really great about attending and it is somewhere that I know my children feel comfortable and will be able to grow up in and through.
The reason I am posting this today is that I spoke to a kinder mum and mentioned where I go to church. I hadn’t really spoken to her before and her response to knowing I go to this church was one of surprise and I wondered why? She was someone who is not unfamiliar with churches, but her response was a definite “Oh so YOU go there?” and it made me wonder at her reply.
What defines a Christian? What makes people think other people are Christians or believers? What was it about me, who she had only spoken to once before, that made her feel surprise at the thought that I would attend church?
Maybe it was the fact that you don’t often come across people in daily life who do attend church? Sadly, I don’t anyway.
Maybe it was the way I looked? Acted? Not really sure but I know my definition of what a Christian is has been redefined and shaped over recent years to this……
A person who believes in a magnificent God. A person who believes in the bible. A person who believes in Jesus – the loving, compassionate , forgiving Jesus quoted here by John Cusack….
Let’s go with Jesus. Not the gay-hating, war-making political tool of the right, but the outcast, subversive, supreme adept who preferred the freaks and lepers and despised and doomed the rich and powerful.
He loved the unloveable, he forgave the unforgivable, he washed the feet of his disciples and wasn’t afraid to mix with the prostitutes, lepers and tax collectors.
If we strip away everything from religion today, particularly the parts that turn so many people away from the church and simply look to Christ, that is what we are left with. Christ.
Pure simple Christianity, followers and believers in Christ who try each day to live life in a better way, to glorify him, and in small and sometimes large ways, show some compassion, love and humanity to those around us. Regardless of how often we attend church, tithe, or talk about it to others. Living this life is more than talking about it.
That is what Christianity means to me and I am proud to call myself one. Would love to hear thoughts from others!